[ !!!! later, is good. eren agrees with no quarrel, and now . . . what he actually came here for. he inhales, not too sharp, but he does hold his breath for a moment, look around, then find a place to sit. the bed, the floor, a chair, it didn’t really matter. as long as they had a place to settle the slight tension he was feeling on his shoulders. that he’s silently denying exists. ]
Deal.
[ breathe out. alright. he’s not going to run around in circles here, neither is he going to waste time explaining he doesn’t really do that when it’s. sort of obvious he doesn’t. ]
About Full Moon— I have a heat season until August. [ he. feels like he needs to let him know that. if you ask him are you horny now he’ll probably admit yeah a little, but there’s nothing compared to the blow out of full moon. he can just pleasure himself and it’ll be manageable. either way, there’s more. eren spends a moment or so massaging the bridge of his nose, before it slides up and idly past the curve of his horns. ] . . . I’m worried about how you feel.
[ eren admits, rather easily. it was obvious it felt good, but emotionally— mm. he wasn’t the type to sleep around, neither would he use people just for himself. it was a sacred moment in the sense that he exposed his intimacy and vice versa, and that alone was select to, right now, the only people who connect to him the most: his bonded.
but with elliot it still . . . felt like he pounced over a flight of stairs just to satiate desire and it didn’t feel right to leave at that. eren’s eyes are sincere as his feelings are: he isn’t lying about being worried about the other’s feelings. ]
I don’t regret a second of it. [ that’s when the scales of his cheeks flush a little scarlet, against charcoal. he ducks his head a little awkwardly, but raises eye contact again. this was important. ] But feeling used or interchangeable is the last thing I want. And the one thing I’ll regret.
[ he wasn’t just some. piece of meat he could cook up and dine whenever he felt like it. he was a person and he needed respect. eren just can’t shake off the feeling that at some point, he could’ve— expressed that, as accidental as it was, lizard brain is very direct in what it wants and it may not translate the same way to human brain. he isn’t remorseful, again, but, if elliot feels like trash because of him, man.
no need for any more regrets, his plate is full for a lifetime here. ]
no subject
Deal.
[ breathe out. alright. he’s not going to run around in circles here, neither is he going to waste time explaining he doesn’t really do that when it’s. sort of obvious he doesn’t. ]
About Full Moon— I have a heat season until August. [ he. feels like he needs to let him know that. if you ask him are you horny now he’ll probably admit yeah a little, but there’s nothing compared to the blow out of full moon. he can just pleasure himself and it’ll be manageable. either way, there’s more. eren spends a moment or so massaging the bridge of his nose, before it slides up and idly past the curve of his horns. ] . . . I’m worried about how you feel.
[ eren admits, rather easily. it was obvious it felt good, but emotionally— mm. he wasn’t the type to sleep around, neither would he use people just for himself. it was a sacred moment in the sense that he exposed his intimacy and vice versa, and that alone was select to, right now, the only people who connect to him the most: his bonded.
but with elliot it still . . . felt like he pounced over a flight of stairs just to satiate desire and it didn’t feel right to leave at that. eren’s eyes are sincere as his feelings are: he isn’t lying about being worried about the other’s feelings. ]
I don’t regret a second of it. [ that’s when the scales of his cheeks flush a little scarlet, against charcoal. he ducks his head a little awkwardly, but raises eye contact again. this was important. ] But feeling used or interchangeable is the last thing I want. And the one thing I’ll regret.
[ he wasn’t just some. piece of meat he could cook up and dine whenever he felt like it. he was a person and he needed respect. eren just can’t shake off the feeling that at some point, he could’ve— expressed that, as accidental as it was, lizard brain is very direct in what it wants and it may not translate the same way to human brain. he isn’t remorseful, again, but, if elliot feels like trash because of him, man.
no need for any more regrets, his plate is full for a lifetime here. ]