[He'll reach over and pat Rean on the shoulder, comfortingly. It's okay scolded puppy, he still loves you. ]
Yeah, I hope there isn't a next time. Though, if Crow is having a time of it right now, maybe it'll be my turn next to have some nasty surprise come up from the past life?
[He says this as a joke, honestly. Because uh yeah. He's got enough memories to know he's just a music nerd]
Seriously, though... it's getting a lot easier to turn that power on at will, at least. I haven't been able to successfully hold it back or "turn it off" without it just running out of steam on its own first, but... I think I might be able to with more time.
I'm definitely way more in control of myself now, though.
It's not so much being in danger as it is the fear of losing something... losing people. When it's just Eren coming after me, I mean, obviously I have some survival instinct, but that's normally not enough to kick it in.
Thinking about how I want to see you guys again, about how there's still so much I want to tell you and see you accomplish, that's enough.
[Sure arguably worrying that Rean has that little self worth that he can't trigger a survival mechanism without thinking of others but....you know what? Baby steps. Baby steps is key here]
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[He'll reach over and pat Rean on the shoulder, comfortingly. It's okay scolded puppy, he still loves you. ]
Yeah, I hope there isn't a next time. Though, if Crow is having a time of it right now, maybe it'll be my turn next to have some nasty surprise come up from the past life?
[He says this as a joke, honestly. Because uh yeah. He's got enough memories to know he's just a music nerd]
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[He can't help but smile at that, self-deprecating as it may be.]
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How goes training anyway?
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You're too sweet.
Ah... with Eren, or in general?
[It's not like he told Eren to keep their training secret.]
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Yeah, with Eren! [Like he knows a thing about sword training ok]
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Well.
I'm not dead yet, so it's a start?
[HELPFUL, REAN.]
Seriously, though... it's getting a lot easier to turn that power on at will, at least. I haven't been able to successfully hold it back or "turn it off" without it just running out of steam on its own first, but... I think I might be able to with more time.
I'm definitely way more in control of myself now, though.
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[VERY HELPFUL REAN]
That's great to hear though! So does that mean you figured out the trigger?
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It's not so much being in danger as it is the fear of losing something... losing people. When it's just Eren coming after me, I mean, obviously I have some survival instinct, but that's normally not enough to kick it in.
Thinking about how I want to see you guys again, about how there's still so much I want to tell you and see you accomplish, that's enough.
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[Sure arguably worrying that Rean has that little self worth that he can't trigger a survival mechanism without thinking of others but....you know what? Baby steps. Baby steps is key here]
And are you lucid when it happens?
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[He eats the last of his pancake, swallowing it. Delicious fluffy pancakes]
I remember you telling me about the bear story. That's what I knew about it.
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It's still going to take a lot of time and a lot of work, but even just in a week I've started feeling more confident about it.
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Yeah, it sounds like you've made loads of progress! I'm sure if you keep at it, you'll get it down for sure!
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Ahaha... just hope I can live up to those expectations, I guess.
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Hehe, I'm sure you will.
Just like we'll get through to Crow that he's still our friend.