before, when we all had more normal problems . . . the first person i’d go to was my sister. it was hard to talk to anyone pissed off and i’d just hurt them, so i’d go straight to her to spar. we’d fight all out, she’d beat the shit out of me, and i’d let off all that steam enough to actually talk about it and see what she had to say.
[ she had become eren’s safe haven, a go to for some weird sibling ritual to be there for each other and avoid being assholes to those uninvolved. except . . . it’s hard to brutally spar with someone that isn’t aware you’re getting memories and powers, and wouldn’t understand either way. ]
amelia isn’t tiffany. so, i’m trying to make amends. but i’m pretty sure every bit of respect she had for me is gone and i don’t know how to fix it.
[Sounds like he mixed up Tifa and Amelia's relationship to him. He can get it. He did really miss being able to tell Carlos anything relevant about his life. Still...the worst he can do with projection is leaning on someone perhaps more than he should. Not...fights]
Have you talked to her about it? Cookies will only do so much.
I tried and apologized, but she dropped it pretty quickly. I went around preaching about control and I was the one who lost it. It’s immature and I get her, I’d do the same thing. And I want to, but I don’t want to keep hiding behind excuses either. I figured the least I could do is help her heal and try to talk again, but. I don’t know what else to say. What would you say?
You're asking me? I'm not exactly an expert in this kind of thing. But...I guess I'd just keep trying?
I doubt you ever said you had complete control over yourself. So just...own up to it and try to do better? I don't know...I don't know Amelia myself so I don't know how she thinks.
I’m asking you because you’re the best help I have.
She’s my friend’s mom. Really serious and pretty sophisticated. I already told her I’m ready for the consequences so that’s a start. I just didn’t want it to look like I don’t care.
[Oh cool he's being asked to give advice about getting aggressive, something he never does, against a mother-- something he hasn't had in over 10 years.
HE LOVES YOU EREN BUT HE IS SO NOT QUALIFIED FOR THIS]
Yeah, that sounds like a good start to me. Look, I'll make a fresh batch of cookies for her. And I think it's good you show how much you care?
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[ he’ll never forget the day you said
the m word ]
she flew into a building earlier
and I .... didn’t make it any easier
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[Because he sure forgot]
Oh....
Ouch. Okay. I'll send food.
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but, if you can do that, thanks. a lot. i just hope she’ll accept it.
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Hey, it's nothing. I do like helping people, after all.
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You remember the dragon in Magatus? It’s a woman named Amelia, we sparred a lot in the forest after.
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I do want to do those things someday though. [Move in together, get married]
Just when we're ready
Oh yeah I remember her!
You were helping her out!
How's it going for her? Is she getting better control?
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she’s doing really great. better than me, even.
we’re on a break, though.
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Oh yeah?
Why the break?
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[ she had become eren’s safe haven, a go to for some weird sibling ritual to be there for each other and avoid being assholes to those uninvolved. except . . . it’s hard to brutally spar with someone that isn’t aware you’re getting memories and powers, and wouldn’t understand either way. ]
amelia isn’t tiffany. so, i’m trying to make amends.
but i’m pretty sure every bit of respect she had for me is gone and i don’t know how to fix it.
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[Sounds like he mixed up Tifa and Amelia's relationship to him. He can get it. He did really miss being able to tell Carlos anything relevant about his life. Still...the worst he can do with projection is leaning on someone perhaps more than he should. Not...fights]
Have you talked to her about it?
Cookies will only do so much.
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I went around preaching about control and I was the one who lost it. It’s immature and I get her, I’d do the same thing.
And I want to, but I don’t want to keep hiding behind excuses either. I figured the least I could do is help her heal and try to talk again, but.
I don’t know what else to say. What would you say?
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I'm not exactly an expert in this kind of thing.
But...I guess I'd just keep trying?
I doubt you ever said you had complete control over yourself.
So just...own up to it and try to do better?
I don't know...I don't know Amelia myself so I don't know how she thinks.
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She’s my friend’s mom. Really serious and pretty sophisticated. I already told her I’m ready for the consequences so that’s a start.
I just didn’t want it to look like I don’t care.
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HE LOVES YOU EREN BUT HE IS SO NOT QUALIFIED FOR THIS]
Yeah, that sounds like a good start to me.
Look, I'll make a fresh batch of cookies for her.
And I think it's good you show how much you care?
I hope...she's receptive to it.
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no better way to do than do
but thanks
i’m on my way alright?
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Wish I could give more solid advice.
But alright, I'll seeya soon!