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[You know, there's something about Fie using proper grammar and punctuation that's really powerful. Towa has shared her insecurities with many of the people in their initial group. Perhaps it's Fie's turn.]

Fie...

As much as I'd like to say it is really sudden, it's not. The truth is-- I wanted to come back from Dorchacht and put my best foot forward as your Guild Leader after doubting myself for a long time. Even if I've always been put in positions of leadership, it's not like I've ever felt particularly skilled in a way that befits a leader. In fact, it's always been very hard for me. So I came to the sinking suspicion that it may not be something I'm well suited for.

However, I've always cared a great deal about the expectations others have for me. If someone's put their faith in me, then I owe it to them to work twice as hard and succeed despite my failings.

I don't mind that reality. But I don't want to give anyone false expectations.

This Guild is something I believe in. Something I want to succeed, from the bottom of my heart. I don't believe I'm well suited to be it's leader. The fact that I've already made a decision that looks bad for my position without realizing how it looks is probably proof enough of that.

However. If, knowing all that, there are still people who believe in the things I can accomplish, even if it may not be the right way or the easy way-- I don't mind working two, three, even four times as hard as anyone else to do it.