Kaisou: Class VII Group Chat

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Class VII Group Chat

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[switchaxe]

oh trust me if it was just me bein thirsty I would NOT be texting any of you. that is not any conversation any of us want to have.

[Also "reading erotica"? Dude this is the 21st century we have apps for that.]

I just. fuck.

[fiddlestick]

[LOOK HE'S NOT GOING TO TELL HIM TO SIGN UP FOR PORNHUB, JUST LET HIM PRETEND YOU'RE ON AO3]

Haha, I understand. Just figured I'd say that to be clear.

It's okay. I don't think the world will end if you ask him out. Jusis probably won't make you do a shotgun wedding.

[switchaxe]

[...fuck it. They won't judge him, right?]

I just don't think I'm good for him.

[fiddlestick]

Ash

The fact you're worried about that? Shows that you are good for him. Because you actually care about his wellbeing.

And I've seen him at school with you. He really comes out of his shell when he's around you.

[switchaxe]

yeah and me carin' is why I don't think I'm good for him. I'll hurt him

[fiddlestick]

I mean, if I'm honest? The chance of hurting him aren't zero.

But that goes with any relationship. There's always a chance someone will get hurt. Instead of being afraid of that, it's better to figure out either how to avoid that, or what to do if it does happen.

But it's something you and Fugo need to work out. Tell him about your fears, and what you think might happen. Then he can decide if he wants to risk it.

But...you can't make the decision for him. I mean think if he did that for you, you'd be pretty mad right?

[switchaxe]

course I would. but I don't wanna lose control around him.

[fiddlestick]

[Elliot sighs to himself on his end. Yeah, Ash isn't going to like this one but they're going in circles here]

Ash, don't take this as an insult because I actually do this, but...

If you don't think this can be solved by talking things out with Furgo - then have you considered therapy? I know you got a possession problem, I get that, but a therapist would be able help with anger management strategies so losing control would be less of an issue.

[switchaxe]

there even any therapists that wouldn't run screamin from all the shit I've got?

[fiddlestick]

There are! There's therapists that actually specialize in trauma, so they're trained to handle tough cases.

Though of course, we'd need to find one that is also aware of the supernatural. I don't have a list of ones in Kaisou on hand, but I bet Dr. Rosewood would have some good recommendations. I drive another student to sessions with him, and he seems to know what he's doing.

[switchaxe]

[Ash doesn't want to, doesn't think it'll help, is pretty sure it'd do the opposite of helping, but he's not going to be an ass to Elliot like that. Not today.

And he does want to do right by Pat, it's just this damn possession.]

just gotta make sure they're not Krusnik. but I'll try.

[fiddlestick]

Of course, we'll make sure of that.

And Ash? Whether or not you decide to date Fugo is up to you. Maybe you aren't ready for a relationship right now, and that's okay.

But no matter what you're telling yourself, you're not a lost cause. And you also have every right to be happy.

[motiv8]

Ash, I really doubt any one of us thinks we're "good" for anyone else. Self-esteem isn't exactly the highest stat in this group, I'm sure you've noticed.

But that's the thing: we don't have to think we are.

If he makes you happy, and if you make him happy? That's all that matters. And you don't get to decide for him whether or not he makes you happy.

[switchaxe]

I'm going end up hurting him Schwarzer

[motiv8]

Maybe. Maybe not.

That's still his decision to make, however things shake out.

[switchaxe]

I'm possessed, Schwarzer, and the price is fighting

[The core of the issue, really.]

[motiv8]

So I've gathered.

But he knows that, too, Ash. Do you think he wouldn't take that into account?

[switchaxe]

I guess. still don't wanna risk it, y'know?

[motiv8]

I know.

But I don't think you should let fear hold you back from ever experiencing joy. Regardless of whether or not he likes you back, you're his best friend, right?

Pushing him away will hurt him, too. At least if you let him in, he's getting hurt because he chose it.

[...He's not entirely sure why he's so certain of this. Why it feels like it's something that's happened before.

Oh, well. It's fine, right? It's probably fine.]

[switchaxe]

I ain't gonna push him away or anythin, I just don't know if saying I like him's a good idea

[motiv8]

[...Maybe it's just Rean, but he struggles to see how Ash plans to not push Fugo away, given everything.

He's not going to push it further right now, though. Ash isn't in the best state for that sort of thing, so Rean will let it lie for the time being.]

Well, in the end, it's your decision. I can't tell you what's right or wrong for you.

But just keep what I've said in mind. That's all I can really ask.

[noblerise]

You are good for him. You care greatly for his well-being and his happiness, and you make him genuinely happy when you're around. These are not small things.

But this is not just about whether you're compatible in personality, is it?